I'm listening to an audio book called Self-Cmpassion, but Kristin Neff. Is it great? I don't know, but it does strike a cord. I know there are others on the same topic, and I have no idea if it is better or worse, but I do know it is something I want to work on. I think there is a desire to be perfect as a parent that outstrips most other goals, but it's just not going to happen. when I take responsibility for B's happiness, I am sending her the message that it's not something she should be taking responsibility for. If I berate myself, I am modeling self-loathing. What the hell? ! It's not helping me and it's not helping her. So I will be kind to her and kind to myself. I won't solve all her problems. I'll help out where I can and let go where I can and try to model self-love. I do have some things in my favor. I do have a loving, suportive spouse. He is not a perfect person, but he is very good. And that is kind of like being perfect. For me at least.
Tomorrow we celebrate or 17th wedding anniversary. Neither of us could quite remember how long it had been so we had to look it up. Three more years till 20. Knowing us, we won't do anything special. B will be almost seventeen. It's not out of the question that we could leave her with a friend and go away for a three-day weekend. Maybe. It's pleasant to think of that possibility.
Tomorrow we celebrate or 17th wedding anniversary. Neither of us could quite remember how long it had been so we had to look it up. Three more years till 20. Knowing us, we won't do anything special. B will be almost seventeen. It's not out of the question that we could leave her with a friend and go away for a three-day weekend. Maybe. It's pleasant to think of that possibility.